PaST AnD PreSent and Maybe Future

Kids...
One day u'll know that the part of getting older is not an easy part.
WHen you start to think of responsibility
and when you have to start looking for your own money.
That is tough.

a girl once told me.
"Danial! you are one person that i think is quiet impossible to say 'No' when a person ask for help or offers job"
Well. That sentence makes me think a lot.
It was a perfect day.. The day the earth stood still..
Yeah. Now i know why i hardly say no to working and helping people.

Now that i'm home.
It's quiet impossible for me to say yes.
Coz when i say yes, i got this strange feeling
which is GUILT.

Kids..
I'm a son and i got one big sister which is considered ill
and i'm the only child left and i'm the only hope for my parents.
But comes to one point at a time.
I keep saying no to an offer.
I'm thinking about what should i becoming of.

it's tough though.
Really really tough.
People often to say this.
Ask for help to look after your sister.
Ask your cousin or any other relatives
Find a maid.
Yeah Yeah.
But let me tell u something.
By just telling me what to do. It won't work!
Help me out!
I can give orders too!
It's easier to say rather than accomplished it.

Sigh..
I just hope that.
I have a future.
At least better and brighter.
Coz i can't seem to imagine what would my life would be
in 5 years time. or maybe after that.